What Was
Jul 13, 2005 18:03:38 GMT -5
Post by leducred on Jul 13, 2005 18:03:38 GMT -5
When Steve's album FTLOSM came out, i was going through a bitterly painful break up. One I honestly NEVER thought I could recover from. (nor did my parents think). STeve's album came out like 4months after the breakup. When i heard about the unreleased songs coming out i was like "COOL"! As any of us would have thought!
I sat down to listen to the plus 5 cd w/What Was on it. I had my headphones on, sat in my chair in my apartment, phone was turned off, and all the lights off(i wanted the full affect of STeve!) cough cough.
I had tears draining down my face. I could not control my crying, thoughts , or anything. IT was almost as if he knew what i had gone through.
My ex -the painful break up one was w/me for 5yrs when we more or less made it clear to each other that its not good, move on time. I called it quits. I was the one who started the who talk and said 'if you dont love me now then its never going to be, i have to leave for me to start healing so i can find the one who will be everything to me!" He played w/my head for a while after and i can tell you i was 'damage goods' for a while. HE would call me, drop notes to me , we would volunteer at a local pbs station and do those "please call w/a donation we need money' things- and i would pick nites i knew he would work at work and would not be there and he would be there (like someone told him i was there). Eventually I had ,had enough. I dropped everythign that had to do w/him, us, restaurants I stopped going to as well that he would frequent or i would think he would.
I look back now and i think wow what a painful time but ya know what? im so glad i went through it- i found my soulmate- he treats me like a princess(and i would NEVER tell him that haha)and we had my two boys. I have the life i wanted and very blessed in many ways.
s
I sat down to listen to the plus 5 cd w/What Was on it. I had my headphones on, sat in my chair in my apartment, phone was turned off, and all the lights off(i wanted the full affect of STeve!) cough cough.
I had tears draining down my face. I could not control my crying, thoughts , or anything. IT was almost as if he knew what i had gone through.
My ex -the painful break up one was w/me for 5yrs when we more or less made it clear to each other that its not good, move on time. I called it quits. I was the one who started the who talk and said 'if you dont love me now then its never going to be, i have to leave for me to start healing so i can find the one who will be everything to me!" He played w/my head for a while after and i can tell you i was 'damage goods' for a while. HE would call me, drop notes to me , we would volunteer at a local pbs station and do those "please call w/a donation we need money' things- and i would pick nites i knew he would work at work and would not be there and he would be there (like someone told him i was there). Eventually I had ,had enough. I dropped everythign that had to do w/him, us, restaurants I stopped going to as well that he would frequent or i would think he would.
I look back now and i think wow what a painful time but ya know what? im so glad i went through it- i found my soulmate- he treats me like a princess(and i would NEVER tell him that haha)and we had my two boys. I have the life i wanted and very blessed in many ways.
s